Today, marked my first full trading day.
It is also the first day that i can finally fully concentrate on something that chase me away from the memories.
4 x 4 = 16
sometimes, i really think that there are some kind of mysterious energies that couldn’t be seen to make everything seems like interrelated.
It was the most heartache day that i almost lost myself.
Since then, i realised i have been suffering from easily foreseeable consequences that i kept holding tight for the past few months…
It’s fascinating how much of a strong filter that heartbreak can have on your life. It is so powerful that it stop becoming an emotion . Instead, it’s like part of the body that you wake up with it, you go to bed with it , you eat with it as if like it’s your constant companion… It’s.. just .. too crazy to even tell you that i do not know how to tell how much damages it cause to my body and mind… no one understand how i truly feel…
My body was highly filled with C2H5OH and my mind was well hallucinated by the ethanol family too..
It is going to mark the day to end the memories. Exactly a month away from one of my big day in my life.
In my previous post, i mentioned about smiling depression.
Many comeback saying that they’re facing the same situations.
You have to walk out from it. No one else can help you if you don’t help yourself.
The future will be better tomorrow!
Now, I am occupying myself with intraday trades.
I guess, sooner or later, my blog will be floated with the 4 digits counters and charts !
Oh ! and i’ve got to ask for the best advice for the eye care remedy now.
I am facing the screen for almost 23 hours everyday.
With 1 or 2 hours sleep recently, i need no eyeshadow at all.
April, treat me better. May is waiting ahead.